Thursday, May 31, 2007
Here I go again on my own....
Wow, how long has it been....I don't even know where to start. I decided to find my blog again because I needed a place to vent and I figure no better place then here. Heck, I bet nobody even reads this old dusty thing anymore, except maybe Mike to check and see if I have written....he'll certainly be surprised. My blog came in with the fad and left with Myspace....but everybody and their brother is on there so I don't really feel all that comfortable airing my dirty laundry to the whole town. I have a feeling I will be coming back to this place a lot 'cause at this point in time I feel no one understands my happenings nor can they relate. Jenn has been my go to but its pretty hard since she's so far away right now. I can escape to her on the phone but I wish she was here for me to really escape, to have fun nights out driving around, stuffing our faces at charlies for 2 hours, and sitting around talking till we fall asleep...aahhh the good ol' days! Well for now I must get back to work but I promise to tend to you later and report all my weaknesses, bad habits, and emotionally draining situations....bet ya can't wait!
Monday, June 27, 2005
Feelin' HOT HOT HOT....
Well here it is another wonderful Monday and boy its awfully steamy outside, but then again we are heading into July so this kind of weather is about normal for Evansville. I haven't really been doing much lately, school and work keep me pretty occupied. I am going to be moving though so that's kind of exciting...I have lived by myself now for 2 years (besides with my dog) and I am going to be sharing my living space again, freaky!! I m moving back in with Jenn (my roommate from college), we lived together for two years until I moved off campus and she decided to stay on. We get along fine and she tends to bring out a different side of me, which is nice. We are total opposites of each other but get along so well, its nice to have some contrast in my life.
I guess that's the biggest thing happening in my life right now I would say everything else is same ole' same. My BFF will be home again soon, which is always nice but not in time for the 4th which is sad....I guess I 'll have to make due.
My very good friend from high school got married this weekend to her highschool sweetheart (make me gag..hehe). The are truly meant to be, they have been together now a lil over 6 years and are perfect for each other. I am so glad they finally tied the knot....Its was a big surprise because it was real random but we all knew it was bound to happen.
Well kids I must be off to class now....blah! I shall write again soon, Love Tiffany
I guess that's the biggest thing happening in my life right now I would say everything else is same ole' same. My BFF will be home again soon, which is always nice but not in time for the 4th which is sad....I guess I 'll have to make due.
My very good friend from high school got married this weekend to her highschool sweetheart (make me gag..hehe). The are truly meant to be, they have been together now a lil over 6 years and are perfect for each other. I am so glad they finally tied the knot....Its was a big surprise because it was real random but we all knew it was bound to happen.
Well kids I must be off to class now....blah! I shall write again soon, Love Tiffany
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
And time goes on...
So I said I was going to try and continue writing but as you can see that hasn't happened...go figure!!
I have been wanting to blog lately due to all the events going on but I just can't seem to figure out what I want to say....and I still am not so sure.
I guess I shall start from the beginning.....On Saturday April 30th I was at work like usual and I decided for lunch that me and Joanna were going to go get something to eat. When we left the library I took out my phone and I had 1 missed call from Beth Evans (which was strange because we hadn't talked in what seemed like forever) and a voicemail. I listened to the voicemail which said "Tiffany this is Beth call me back I have something important to tell you". My immediate reaction was something happened to Darren, Michaels brother (Michael is Beths boyfriend) because he was over in Iraq, I told Joanna that and proceeded to call Beth back.
My worst nightmare had come true, Darren had died that Thursday in Iraq from a bomb attack at the age of 20yrs old. I had no idea what to say so I asked if I could call her back and I just lost it. I had known Darren for 7 years, we worked together for a year at the Roca Bar, his brother and I had been friends since middle school, we use to hang out on the weekends and we always kept in touch even while he was away. I just couldn't believe it I was in utter shock.
I went back to work and tried to carry on like normal so I could just get out of their and have a day to collect how I feel about this situation. I got of work at 6 pm that night and right as I was walking out the door my Mom called. "Eric (my cousin) was in a 4-wheeler accident they had to life flight him to St Marys hospital". I couldn't believe this was happening not all in one day. I talked to her for a bit and she asked if I wanted to go to the hospital and I said I wasn't sure. I went home and changed clothes and called my friend Sarah. I told her I wanted to go and I felt I needed to be there but I didn't want to add to the chaos of everyone else being their. She said if you feel you need to be their then go.
My and my mom got their around 7:30pm and by that time he had been moved from the ER to ICU. His sister Shannon told us he had broken every bone in his face and that when he arrived they had to shock him twice to get him back. His body was fine and nothing was injured with his spine but he was bleeding from his mouth, eyes, ears and nose. Their was medicine they could give him to help stop the bleeding but he had to get his blood pressue back up first. While we were there I was told I could go back their to see him, I wasn't sure if I wanted to. I didn't want that to be the last image I had of him but at the sametime I wanted him to know I was there. So I decided not to for the time being. I rode their with my mom and she kept wanting to leave so she could beat my brother home but I begged that we stay just a little longer. Around 11:30 the nurse came out wanting the family but everyone had gone downstairs except me and my mom and my aunt. Everyone came running upstairs and into the ICU and I stood outside the door with my mom contemplating on wether I wanted to go back. Finally our cousin Sammy Jo came up and said take my hand we will go back together. I am sooo glad I went....we got back there and they had Eric laying flat on the table performing CPR on him, they tried for 30 minutes to revive him and at 12:05am Sunday May 1st Eric Joesph Greenwell Died at the age of 20 yrs old.
I never did see his face when I was back there which I am so happy about. Everyone said it was horrible and I didn't want that image in my head. Eric and I were so close and I think I am still in denial about a month later. We had already planned for his 21st birthday in October, which he will never get the chance to celebrate. The last time I had seen him was Easter sunday, we went to his house and had gone riding in the woods on the 4-wheeler. Ironically I hadnt talked to him since except the Wednesday before his accident he called to see how I was and we talked for about 15 mins while he was driving to work. I miss him more then I have ever missed anyone and not a day goes by I don't think of him and all we shared together.
Well now I guess you know why its been so hard to write lately....but I feel better now that I have written. Until next time....Tiffany
I have been wanting to blog lately due to all the events going on but I just can't seem to figure out what I want to say....and I still am not so sure.
I guess I shall start from the beginning.....On Saturday April 30th I was at work like usual and I decided for lunch that me and Joanna were going to go get something to eat. When we left the library I took out my phone and I had 1 missed call from Beth Evans (which was strange because we hadn't talked in what seemed like forever) and a voicemail. I listened to the voicemail which said "Tiffany this is Beth call me back I have something important to tell you". My immediate reaction was something happened to Darren, Michaels brother (Michael is Beths boyfriend) because he was over in Iraq, I told Joanna that and proceeded to call Beth back.
My worst nightmare had come true, Darren had died that Thursday in Iraq from a bomb attack at the age of 20yrs old. I had no idea what to say so I asked if I could call her back and I just lost it. I had known Darren for 7 years, we worked together for a year at the Roca Bar, his brother and I had been friends since middle school, we use to hang out on the weekends and we always kept in touch even while he was away. I just couldn't believe it I was in utter shock.
I went back to work and tried to carry on like normal so I could just get out of their and have a day to collect how I feel about this situation. I got of work at 6 pm that night and right as I was walking out the door my Mom called. "Eric (my cousin) was in a 4-wheeler accident they had to life flight him to St Marys hospital". I couldn't believe this was happening not all in one day. I talked to her for a bit and she asked if I wanted to go to the hospital and I said I wasn't sure. I went home and changed clothes and called my friend Sarah. I told her I wanted to go and I felt I needed to be there but I didn't want to add to the chaos of everyone else being their. She said if you feel you need to be their then go.
My and my mom got their around 7:30pm and by that time he had been moved from the ER to ICU. His sister Shannon told us he had broken every bone in his face and that when he arrived they had to shock him twice to get him back. His body was fine and nothing was injured with his spine but he was bleeding from his mouth, eyes, ears and nose. Their was medicine they could give him to help stop the bleeding but he had to get his blood pressue back up first. While we were there I was told I could go back their to see him, I wasn't sure if I wanted to. I didn't want that to be the last image I had of him but at the sametime I wanted him to know I was there. So I decided not to for the time being. I rode their with my mom and she kept wanting to leave so she could beat my brother home but I begged that we stay just a little longer. Around 11:30 the nurse came out wanting the family but everyone had gone downstairs except me and my mom and my aunt. Everyone came running upstairs and into the ICU and I stood outside the door with my mom contemplating on wether I wanted to go back. Finally our cousin Sammy Jo came up and said take my hand we will go back together. I am sooo glad I went....we got back there and they had Eric laying flat on the table performing CPR on him, they tried for 30 minutes to revive him and at 12:05am Sunday May 1st Eric Joesph Greenwell Died at the age of 20 yrs old.
I never did see his face when I was back there which I am so happy about. Everyone said it was horrible and I didn't want that image in my head. Eric and I were so close and I think I am still in denial about a month later. We had already planned for his 21st birthday in October, which he will never get the chance to celebrate. The last time I had seen him was Easter sunday, we went to his house and had gone riding in the woods on the 4-wheeler. Ironically I hadnt talked to him since except the Wednesday before his accident he called to see how I was and we talked for about 15 mins while he was driving to work. I miss him more then I have ever missed anyone and not a day goes by I don't think of him and all we shared together.
Well now I guess you know why its been so hard to write lately....but I feel better now that I have written. Until next time....Tiffany
Saturday, April 16, 2005
YES I AM ALIVE!!
Hey Hey Hey, it seems like it has been years since my last blogging, I can't believe what a break I took, but never fear I am back in action!!
So many things to say, two events in my life have provoked me to get back to the blog:
1. The wreck that happened this week which involves one of my closest and longest friends sister Jennifer
2. The most incredible night I had last night!!
Leslie and I have been friends since the first day of school in first grade. Our fathers and mothers are friends, and were before we were ever born. In high school we use to carpool switching weeks since we lived so close to each other and school, cuz duh, you just weren't cool if you didn't drive (Even though school its about 100 yrds from my house and about 300 yards from hers). The fact I have grown up with this family my whole life brought this into more of a reality for me. Although Leslie has moved to Atlanta we still stay in touch and I see her sister in the library quite often getting materials to teach with. When I found out her sister Jennifer was the lady in the house my heart I swear skipped a beat, it was like I was frozen in time and unable to comprehend what has happened. The worst part was when I found out who the idiot behind the wheel was and the fact I had had a run in with him a few years ago that was unpleasant made it that much worse. It made me realize how precious life is and how to never take for granite all the things that life holds. LESLIE: I am thinking about you constantly and you know I am here if you ever need anything what so ever. JENNIFER: My thoughts and prayers are with you, I know if anyone could make it through this it will be you!! TIM: You will pay the ultimate price for this in the end, the reprecutions are for more then your 18 yr old brain can ever fatham, to bad for that because had you thought about it, maybe no one would be in this situation to begin with.
On to last night, it was the craziest, most fun time I have had in my life!!! I went to Fast Eddys with the Sara(h)'s and man am I glad I did. When we got there Regina, Sarah Basham, Lori Baumeyer, Ryan Smith, and others from highschool were there and I was like "another reunion, yay" but omg if thats a reunion I want to have one every weekend it was awesome. I danced with people I haven't talked to in years, some for that matter I have never talked to in my life. My big bro Brett D was there and we had a little heart to heart and then danced it up on the dance floor with Mackey and David Baize. It was awkward when Bretts ex was their and me and her were talkin' but then I talked to Brett and found out what was up so it all made sense. It was a very fun time and I needed a little break like that from all the stress of school and such.
I hope to write again soon but I am not sure...I am a busy girl these days!!
Later, Tiffany Jayne
So many things to say, two events in my life have provoked me to get back to the blog:
1. The wreck that happened this week which involves one of my closest and longest friends sister Jennifer
2. The most incredible night I had last night!!
Leslie and I have been friends since the first day of school in first grade. Our fathers and mothers are friends, and were before we were ever born. In high school we use to carpool switching weeks since we lived so close to each other and school, cuz duh, you just weren't cool if you didn't drive (Even though school its about 100 yrds from my house and about 300 yards from hers). The fact I have grown up with this family my whole life brought this into more of a reality for me. Although Leslie has moved to Atlanta we still stay in touch and I see her sister in the library quite often getting materials to teach with. When I found out her sister Jennifer was the lady in the house my heart I swear skipped a beat, it was like I was frozen in time and unable to comprehend what has happened. The worst part was when I found out who the idiot behind the wheel was and the fact I had had a run in with him a few years ago that was unpleasant made it that much worse. It made me realize how precious life is and how to never take for granite all the things that life holds. LESLIE: I am thinking about you constantly and you know I am here if you ever need anything what so ever. JENNIFER: My thoughts and prayers are with you, I know if anyone could make it through this it will be you!! TIM: You will pay the ultimate price for this in the end, the reprecutions are for more then your 18 yr old brain can ever fatham, to bad for that because had you thought about it, maybe no one would be in this situation to begin with.
On to last night, it was the craziest, most fun time I have had in my life!!! I went to Fast Eddys with the Sara(h)'s and man am I glad I did. When we got there Regina, Sarah Basham, Lori Baumeyer, Ryan Smith, and others from highschool were there and I was like "another reunion, yay" but omg if thats a reunion I want to have one every weekend it was awesome. I danced with people I haven't talked to in years, some for that matter I have never talked to in my life. My big bro Brett D was there and we had a little heart to heart and then danced it up on the dance floor with Mackey and David Baize. It was awkward when Bretts ex was their and me and her were talkin' but then I talked to Brett and found out what was up so it all made sense. It was a very fun time and I needed a little break like that from all the stress of school and such.
I hope to write again soon but I am not sure...I am a busy girl these days!!
Later, Tiffany Jayne
Thursday, February 17, 2005
Expectations---How silly of me to think I could
Well I sit here at work rejoicing because I just remebered I get paid tomorrow!! Thats always a plus in my book!!
The past few days have been enlighting to say the least, more of an awaking to reality opposed to my dream world. Their are so many things I want to know, I want explained, I want the blunt honest truth. I am tired of playing games, I am tired of being choosen last and not only last but when the time is right so to speak. I don't want to be convience, I want to be the reason. I know many would say what I have is better then nothing and if I don't like the "bare minimum" I can always have nothing instead if I want to keep bitching and aren't happy. I suppose I should be happy with what I have but its hard to be when in the past you had so much more and meant so much more then just the "inbetween times".
The past few days have been enlighting to say the least, more of an awaking to reality opposed to my dream world. Their are so many things I want to know, I want explained, I want the blunt honest truth. I am tired of playing games, I am tired of being choosen last and not only last but when the time is right so to speak. I don't want to be convience, I want to be the reason. I know many would say what I have is better then nothing and if I don't like the "bare minimum" I can always have nothing instead if I want to keep bitching and aren't happy. I suppose I should be happy with what I have but its hard to be when in the past you had so much more and meant so much more then just the "inbetween times".
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