Alive and well....

Just a little jello to tell ya I am alive.....I will update in length here soon, I have plenty to talk about!!
1. I finally saw Kyle Ray!!
2. Duanes Home!!
3. Christmas was awesome
4. Almost 2 ft of snow
5. I saw Meet the Fockers
6. I got my grades back and they were outstanding (at least for me)


A little preview of whats to come........

Just another manic Monday...Ooooo....

Here I find the start of another wonderful week....blah!! My weekend was okay I suppose, I did go see National Treasure and it was rather good. I wasn't to sure about it at first, but its funny and action packed all at the sametime. Other than that, I think all I did was work my ass off, but what can I say the reward will be worth it. Except I dunno if it will be worth the 25 or so corsages I made for turnabout, my hands and fingers really hurt after all that. I did however get to talk to Duane today and confirmed he will be here on the 23rd which makes me way excited. Everybody seems to think I expect us to rekindle our love, but really I just want to see him and talk to him and rekindle the great friendship we had. I haven't seen him in 3 yrs and wasted 4 yrs of "what could have been" because we never talked. It will be nice to be with him again.

Well I feel the need to get this out and I hope no one finds this offensive but its just how I feel and what I see going on around me. I have noticed that the more people I allow in my life the more drama it creates. I try so hard to broaden my friendship "circle" and intermingle my groups as well but in doing that I cause more harm then good I feel. I also feel this strong pull (and no I am not tryin to flatter myself because its not flattering its rather annoying) of certain people trying to take over me and who I am or roles I play in certain friendships. I once was told by someone, 2 yrs or so ago " I would love to be you because you two are so close..." and it was all in fun and games, unfortunately I feel its happening and its really pissing me off. Another thing that really pisses me off is that people love to rub shit in my face, as if only trying to make me mad and jealous and I really can't stand it. I will admit yes, I get jealous at times but I think its, immature, and stupid to try to make people jealous. Just want things to be simple and not so damn dramatic. I don't care who you finally got to hang out with by yourself, I don't care how cute he looked that night, I don't want you to be like me, I don't want you to do the things we use to do, just the two of us, I don't want to see pictures of you guys together, I don't want to her about the couple-ish things you did...because your not you're just friends, etc. I am sorry but I feel that its a constant pushing of my buttons to try to be better or feel superior to me when all I want is a friendship with everyone. These events are not centered towards one specific person they have happened between a few. I have come to see that in these situations its friends who have started to like other friends of mine, as possibly more than friends...maybe I should just keep friends of all one sex maybe than their won't be so much sexual tention.

Well I feel slightly better now, even though I may have pissed some people off, I can't help it, I really, truly, feel this way. Maybe with time it will all pass, but ultimately I may just have to learn to accept it because some people say "friends make the best lovers". Well enough rantin' and ravin' for now....I hope "the one I shall not speak of" is enjoyin' his time away from this hell hole, because I would love to be on vacation right now!! Goodnight kids...Tiffany

One week before finals....

Well, I have exactly one week left before finals week, and even then I only have one final!! This semster went by so fast, but none the less I think this will be my best semester yet.
Other than that not too much else goin' on in my world, I have been workin' like a mad women but I have to say its really nice to have money for a change. The only thing that sucks is I don't really have any freetime to enjoy the extra cash I have. Christmas is coming up though and I will get a chance to spend it then I am sure. I decided I was gonna have a party for Connor and them again this year since we are having a "private" one with me mike andrea jenn and ross. So I thought that we would do like a gift exchange thing, but I am having problems because none of these guys are very creative. They hvae to get a gift for $15 dollars and it can't be gender specific because you don't know who will get it and so everyone wants to get DVD's and I am like no..be more creative we all don't want movies. I swear guys always try to take the easiest route possible....creativity people come on!!!
Anywhoo, thats about all I have to say, C-dawg is home again this weekend to see the play and go to turnabout with Jenni (which is a whole other blog in itself...) so it was cool seein him las night. Two more weeks and him and Jesse will be home for 3 wks.....its gonna be a drunk fest every night I can see it already!! Well I am at work so I need to get off, but I shall blog again soon...peace out girl scout..Tiffaspiff

Yes I am still living....

Well, well, well....its been awhile since I have blogged so i decided its about that time...plus I am sick and tired of Mike yellin' at me!! Well Thanksgiving went off with out a hitch, I went to my aunts, the circus, connors, and my moms. So needless to say I ate my fair share of food that day. It was nice to see Connor and Jesse, I miss have those two around, they make life fun....btw Happy Birthday Jesse!! I got to see a lot of people over break that I normally don't besides those 2. I saw Matt Hahn, Brandon Lancaster (who I was worried about because he's in the Air Force) and many others. On friday I went to Fast Eddies and my whole senior class was their as well as some others. It made for an interesting night, I also got to see "my eyes"..haha Adam Gann, it was nice to talk to him he's an awesome guy but boy was he drunk, I am not so sure he knew what he was sayin or what was going on but none the less it was fun. I also finally got to talk to Matt Johnson online the other day, I have been so worried because he is fighting in Fallujah (sp) and its been forever since we have talked. He said hes doin good though and he will be home on my Birthday so thats exciting to say the least! Other than that my life is goin along as normal, 2wks left of school and than my Connor will be home for 3 wks, what funtimes we shall have!! Well I need to get some sleep, I will try to write a lil more often!!! Night, Tiffy J

What a fun weekend...

Well, well, well....we meet again!! I have so much new exciting things to tell ya....first I suppose I shall start with what I did this weekend. I had a lot of fun, and it was very cheap fun to say the least. Friday, we decided we would have a drunken game night at my place so, Ross, Jenn, Mike, Sarah P. , Jillian, and Baumgart came over and we drank and played games. We played balderdash till Jenn caught us cheatin' and she got mad and put a stop to that right quick. We were watin' for her to put check by our names on the board...haha...she was definately being teacher like. Saturday I worked my ass off, 10a-8pm at both places but o well, then we decided we would go to Corner Bar and sing kareoke. So, me, Jenni, Mike, Sarah P., Her mom, Baumgart, Jillian, Alex, Ryan S. and Toby?!......went at around 10:30p and was there singin and drinkin until 3am. It was so much fun!! We all sang it was my first time singin' Kareoke and it was awesome, even though I suck major!! Of course Pollard blew us all out of the water, while Baumgart wanted to know if we thought he was sexy! It was a funtime had by all thats for sure!! So that was my fun, cheap weekend, I can definately afford weekends like that!

Well, here's my life update. Jenni's goin to turnabout with my C-dawg so we have to find her a dress, "The one I can not speak of" wants her to go with his friend "L" to his "snowball dance" so we will see how that goes, I got another job which makes this my 4th but I am way stoked to start, I think I got all my laundry caught up for a change which is great!, Christopher's bday is tomorrow the 15th so happy b-day to you, and yea. I found someone I would love to get to know beyond friends but whether or not that will ever go that far I am not sure. This person I feel jus compliments me in so many ways, what I don't know they do, they are very open and up for anything, we have a lot of fun together even though we may not have much in common. I definately don't want to pursue anything yet but I jus want to see where it leads, i just know that I am interested in seeing what happens. I miss my C-Rabbit and Jesse and want them to come home very much so, they have been gone too long!! I am definately looking forward to Thanksgiving and the Circus, I jus can't wait! Well I guess really thats all I have tonight I know my blog was a lil messy, and random tonight but I just had a brain dump thats all! Hope everyone had a great weekend and I shall write again soon!! Night, Love, Tiffany

The people I call friends...still amaze me sometimes

So here I have been for the last 4 weeks or so, contemplating on whether I tell anyone about what happened on a drunken Monday night. As well as thinking whether or not he decided to tell anyone, and praying that he didn't so I could go on with out fearing EVERYONE knew. I spent Saturday with Mike and Jenn, which was honestly one of the nicest things ever! I miss the days when it was like that all the time, and we did crazy, fun things and never worried about anything. We decided to meet up at the shop around 2p and then go to lunch with Sarah P and Steven at Hacienda. By the way I LOVE STEVEN, he is one of the coolest guys I have ever met, and I laugh a mile a minute when I am around him. Anywhoo, we decide after that we are gonna go to the "white trash festival" also known as the giant flea market, and then to the mall. At the Mall, Mike and Jenn wanted to know the tricks of the trade so we spent almost 3 hrs at the mall do our thing, and my o my what fun we had!! After that we were Hungry and decided after being "kicked out" of Turoni's to go eat at the Gurst Haus which was cool, cuz I had never been their. We eat and then I was like hey lets go for a stroll down Franklin and chat it up a bit. As we stroll, we are talking and I make a comment about how I have shit on Mike too...he proceeds to be like "what what?!" then Jenn says she already knows, he told her, and I was like what I told you too...and you said you didn't know!! So come to find out Mike told Jenn, then I told Jenn and she acted like she had no clue what so ever when I told her and she swore Mike hadn't told her yet when I told her. It was sooo funny, because we try to keep things from each other and truth is we all end up telling each other at some point in time and then finally fess up to it later. This is how it has always been with us three, Me and Mike have the biggest mouths ever and never keep them shut, but thats why we mesh so well! So the whole time I though no one knew Andrea and Jenn knew, and I had told Jenn and Connor, funny how that works!! Just to let Mike know, I love you to death and I updated your listing on my page...LOLOLOL!!!

Well tonight was pretty fun, I went to Mike and Andrea's and we played board games with Ross and Jenn. We played Clue FX, Beyond Balderdash, and trivial Pursuit 20th anniversary edition, and Andrea fixed us cookies. It was nice to have a carefree night at home, and not spend money, and I even took the dog to hang out too! It was a fun time had by all and who knew that a hagbut was Mike Caudill..HAHA! Well kids I must get some sleep I have a long day tomorrow, school, work and work. Take care and I shall write soon!! TIFFANY JAYNE

It tis the weekend...Thank God!!

So, my week has been a little crazy to say the least. It all started with the worst Monday on record in my life, but thankfully most of it panned out okay. I do however have to get rid of the love of my life...HEIDI!! Thankfully again I do have this awesome friend named Jennaben Trash..haha..who is going to "dogsit" until I can scrape up the dough to pay for her pet lease with my apartment, so thats awesome...thanks a bunch!! The rest of the week wasn't to bad, I got to vote for the first time ever, I got a 77% on my Humanities test which wasn't too bad, I improved from the last one and I still have a B in the class so I am cool with it, I worked and tutored my lovely Adrian and Sammie, I watched Death of a Salesman, which is probably the most depressing play ever and to top that off I watched it on the day I found out Bush is still the fuckin president, I mean I guess it could be somebody worse but not much, I got a 95% on my math test which means I still have a B in their also, I got my books for my author report and novel teaming, I decided my Dad really does love me even though hes hundreds of miles away, Sarah P. is an awesome person and if it wasn't for her I would have slit my wrist twice already (j.k) but she is a great help, I HATE MY BFF CONNOR, he lied to me and almost made me cry, so for those of you I told he wasn't coming home that little bastard was lieing so he will be here for thanksgiving, which means I get to go to the Circus!!! *sigh*...so I think thats the weekly wrap for ya, what a fun and interesting week I had..NOT!

The weekend will probably be pretty low key because I am lacking in the money department, and I have a powerpoint presentation to do for monday. I do believe tonight though I will be at J.T. Baileys (Fornmally Marina Pointe) to watch the band...o yes after a month long break they are back.....thank god, other bands just don't compare! So if anyone wants to join in the fun me and the girls shall be their around 10p ready to partay!! Other than that my Saturday and Sunday consists of work, 10-2p and 10-3p...what a fun life I lead! Well kids its about time to head to work as we speak, hope everyone had a good week and if not make up for it by havin' an awesome weekend!! Later Tater. TIFFASPIFFARIFFAHIFF~~I HATE U CDAWG, BUT I LOVE YA TOO!!

Election Day!!

So this is my first time voting, so i was kind of nervous goin' in to it all. Of course once I did it I was like, wow that was a piece of cake! I sit here now being very disappointed with the results locally and presidentially. So I go and vote and only 4 of the people I voted for won, which now I am like, I am glad my vote counted, NOT!! O well atleast I did vote, which now gives me the right to bitch jus like I am now!!

Its jus been a crazy week, good thing my weekend was good and I feel as though I did have some fun before all this bad crap imposed itself upon my life.

Why Life Sucks so far this week:
1. Can't register for classes due to Fin. Aid
2. Fell down the stairs Mon. and have a huge bruise
3. They raised my rent to $405.00 for a 1 bedroom apt. ridiculous
4. I have bills out my ass, and no money!
5. I may have to get rid of my dog...I love my Heidi!!
6. Indiana is a bunch of republicans, and at this point in my life I'm not!!

The good things in life:
1. The band finally plays this weekend
2. I found out my highschool b/f is coming to town in Dec. after 3 yrs of not seeing him, he called on Halloween!!
3. My dad worked out the apt. crap
4. Schools doing good grade wise
5. The one I can't speak of has been of great help to me lately, by just talking and listening to me, thx buttface!!
6. I love Sarah and shes is the bestest and without her I would go nuts.

So I guess they all about even out, the good and the bad! I do need to thank Mike for drivin' my intoxicated ass home monday, it was much appreciated! Well I need to go back to the TV so thats all I have to rave about for now! I shall write later, TIFFANY JAYNE

YAWN!!!

All I have to say tonight is...YAWN....I am so tired...for some reason!! Well its thursday and I really have nothing to report. I know this probably the lamest post I have ever posted but what can I say my life blows!! Until this weekend, goodnight and I shall write of more exciting and happening things I hope!! Night, Tiffaspiff

What a nice Sunday....to bad that means tomorrows Monday!

Why hello friends...so its been awhile I know, but what can I say I am a busy woman! Anywhoo I did have a rather fun and eventful weekend to say the least. I thought I was gonna make this a chill weekend so I could catch up on sleep and bills and dishes, etc. but instead I partied like it was 1999..uuuuhhhh...I mean 2004!!

Friday consisted of workin til 8pm and then hittin' up Harpoles with Sara Huelsman, in which I got very intoxicated and had a blast!! I do however need to apologize to Mike, Andrea, Ross, and Jenn for not gracing them with my presence as I had told them I would. I know the party jus wasn't the same with out me, but I wouldn't want to be the center of attention..HAHAHA..jus kiddin'!! So I went to Harpoles for the first time ever, it was pretty cool!! I thought it was gonna be way lame when we got their cuz it was already 10p and only like twelve peeps where there but let me tell ya I was wrong. So the hot bartender (named Zach ironically) was servin' it up, and grabbed my hand, ooohhh hells yea, as Baumdizzle would say!! Then it was a Reitz reunion, jus like any other time I go out...Alex, Ryan S. Brent P., Ryan H., Chaddie D., Josh M., and the list goes on...so we were partyin' it up with them. Then the Miller Light girls came and Chaddie won the contest when they were lookin for a new girl which was cool. Also, C-Dawg got to talk to the love of his life (Chaddie) and he was so happy, she told him to call her when he came home next so needless to say all his dreams have come true. It was a funtime indeed, so fun I didn't get home til 3:15-ish and had to be at work at 10a on Saturday. It was a sad day though cuz Reitz lost in sectionals....*tear*

So then yesterday (Saturday) I got the pleasure of working at the shop and Schnucks 10a-8pm straight through that was a real blast!! I was suppose to hang with my mom after that but she wasn't feelin' so hot so I met up with Jenni-Benni and we decided to get our drink on. Andy D. and his friend Brandon M. from Harrison (he races BMX with him) called me so they joined into....and before you know it we had a big shindig at the pizartment with Jenn, Me, Andy, Brandon, Jimmy, DC, Eric, Brittany, Jason, Alex, Molly, Chealse, and some neighbors down the way. So of course we are livin it up then someone always has to ruin it by pukin' and this time it was not Jason...what a shocker!! I swear why is it men have to prove themselves by how many beers they drink, and why is it the men who can't handle their beer are the ones who drink the most?!?! Another unsolved mystery!! After it was all said and done I finally went to bed at 5am....makes me tired jus writin about it!! It gets better though, Jenni and Andy hooked it up las night which was wizzy weird as she would put it but o well shit happens!! I am jus glad their was no sex up stairs cuz I was down stairs and would not have liked that much!! So that concludes my Saturday...what a funtime!!

Which brings us to today, I sat on my ass all day, fixed cinnamon rolls, watched the Colts lose, did laundry, took my bro to pre-bowl and then saw The Grudge with Jenni and Brittany. Which by the way it was a very weird movie as far as the story line, but some of the scenes scare the shit out of ya!! So theirs my weekend in a nut shell, aren't ya sorry ya missed out?!....well ya shouldn't be cuz it really wasn't that excitin'. Well kids I am done for tonight, hope ya had a great weekend and heres to Monday, may it feel as if it were Friday. I can hope can't I...Night, Tiffany

Oooohhh what a night..

Well all in all I had a pretty good day today. It was nice to just go to school and than have time to hang out with my friends. It had a great time for all those who hung out, and hopefully we can do it again sometime.

It was also interesting later that night. I don't remember the last time I laid in bed with someone and had that much tention (at least on my end, maybe it was only one way). Its not like I was really certain on what I wanted but I hate not knowing how someone feels and tryin' to play off what you think. I am so afraid of offending someone or ruining a friendship so I just let opportunities such as this pass and hope theirs a next time in which to redeem myself. My friendship with this person is much more important to me and I don't want them thinking I feel this way all the time, or that everytime I see them that's how it is. For some reason tonight though I just felt like we laid there feeling the same, afraid to be the one to make the first move, I could be totally off I am not sure. None the less I had an awesome time just laying their talking about the random things in our life, and how we wish things could be. I hope as well if they were to read this they understand and things don't become weird, that would be the last thing in the world I would want. I also hope that maybe if their were a next time and they ever feel the way I did tonight they would some how let me know, so I don't let opportunity pass by or make a mistake by over stepping my boundaries. I really need to control myself, this is how I get myself in trouble.....but its so much fun being bad, hehehe!!

Well I guess since I don't have much else to say I shall end my blogging here, hope everyone had a great day and I shall write again soon!! Goodnight and sweetdreams....Tiffaspiff

Relaxation of the rain...

I love nights like this, nights were you can leave the windows open and listen to the rain as you fall asleep. Their is something so peaceful about the sound of rain and thunder, it just seems to wash away everything that happened that day and allows you to clear your mind and I love it!!

Today was rather low key, I went to school, to the bank, visited with my uncle (whom I love very much and owe my life, he saves my ass many of times and I owe him big!!), tutored Adrian, did some laundry, then went to Tumbleweed with the chicas. It was a fun time, Me, Sara H, Sarah P, Ali, Natalie, Shawn, and Beth enjoyed ourselves with some margaritas and chatted it up, it was nice. Interesting enough I look over diagonal from our table and I see a familiar face sitting in a booth. I had this feeling he would be there tonight, why I don't know but I was right. I continued to sit with my girls contemplating on getting up and sayin hello after his greeting when I waved was the finger. I decided as we all left to stop over and chat, and of course Jodi (sp) got up and left and me and Beth sat down. I am not sure what Jodi's deal is, he seems to think every girl that's involved in ____'s life is a bitch and never seems to be fond of any of them, I think he may just want him to himself I am not sure. Anywhoo, convo was goin good and then he flipped and told me I had ignored him all night and called me a bitch and so on....so Beth had to go and I left too. I just don't quite get him really, how are you goin to call me a bitch in one breath and tell me Jodi rode with you and he can drive your car home in the next. I swear, and he says I have issues I think not!! So I left without sayin bye, I hate when he calls me a bitch and says bad shit about me but then gets mad at me cuz I was offended by it...seriously, someone please help me understand!! So yea....that was my fun night, nothing to crazy or fun, jus some quality time with friends.

I think tomorrow will be rather lax as well, no class til 1:30p....a great day to sleep in!! Nighty night kids and sweetdreams!! Tiffany Jayne, Kyle Ray where were u tonight??

My life officailly blows!!

Heres a list of why I should jus fall off the face of the earth:
1. Reitz Lost to Mater Gay, so disappointing!!
2. I am sicker than a dog, and have been since Wednesday and had to pay $20 bucks for medicine that seems to not be working!!
3. I am broker than broke is broke
4. My computer is STILL down
5. My bank account is -$200 dollars, due to fuckers at Bank One who, took money out without my consent, and till haven't given it back!!
6. Every bill I could possible need to pay is due but I can't write checks cuz of those fuckers!!
7. My school bill is due, and yet I am broke!!
8. Finally, my brakes on my car are squeking, and I have no way of paying for new ones!!

I just want this week to come to an end and hopefully next week will be a lot better, I mean shit can it really get any worse?!?!....I don't think so!! Anywhoo, thats all I have to say...have a great weekend kids!! Later, Tiffany

Long time gone...

So as I am sure the avid readers are aware my computer is still down due to my modem being messed up. I am hopefully going to get it fixed this week, but I am not quite sure yet. Alex jus wanted to say thank you and I dunno what I would do without ya!! Besides that I had an awesome weekend, my BFF Connor came home and we hung out and it was a blast, at least for me, I miss him greatly!! I got to meet his friend Bryce, what a cool, kid I had a funtime with him, he's a hoot!! We went to all the Haunted Houses, which was fun, it was us three and Jenni; and other then that we mainly hung out at the festivities. Well now I have to wait til Thanksgiving until I see him again, its already getting to me!! Jus kiddin', I think I will survive.

Went to Tumbleweed last night and as always it proved for a very eventful evening. Nothin like last Monday though, now that was a fun time!! Tonight I figure I better study for my two test tomorrow so I can maintain that 4.0 I am striving for!! As usual I am looking forward to hump day tomorrow, my how time flies when your having fun. Also tomorrow is the season finally of "Rescue Me"....I don't want it to end I love that show, and it the one thing me and Jimmy do together...O well as usual all good things come to an end!! Well kids I must head off to class so I will write again soon, hopefully from my own computer next time...Ta Ta for Now....Tiffers

MOVIE REVIEW

By the way, Ladder 49 was awesome!! Its funny though because out of the people I have talked to either they really like it or they really hate it. I really liked it, it brought a tear to my eye in some parts but it was really good. It focus a lot on one firefighter in paticular and his daily life starting from when hes a rookie on the squad. It does show the brotherhood firefighters have though and how close they become, and the parts they all play on the department. I think you should see it wether you see it now in the theatre or you wait until it comes out to rent, its a good one!!

Also I am reading a book right now for fun, I know creepy, no I am not sick it was recommended to me by my boss at the shop. Anywhoo its called "Skipping Christmas" By John Grisham its a very short book about 200 pgs and man its hilarous. Supposedly theirs a movies based on this book coming out this holiday season with Tim Allen so i thought why not read the book. Its really funny, and a very easy read, its about a familys desicion to skip christmas this year. If anyone wants to read for funnsies pick it up its a good one.

Tootles, Tiffaspiff

Its been so long, at least it seems that way

Well needless to say my computer is still down, but Alex is gonna fix it tonight so hopefully I will be up and runnin' soon!! Well I had an interesting night las night, I worked and then went to the tumbleweed as usual. It started off as me, Sarah P. Sara H. and Jai. Then Mike called and him, Jenn, Andrea and Greg showed up. The Beth called and she came too, so we had a lil party at the 'weed last night. As I sit in my booth I notice a familar face walk into the bar....since I said I wouldn't mention him in here I won't but yea. He was with Jodi (maybe spelt with a "Y" not sure) so I make my way up to the bar and pat them both on the back and neither one turn around. By this time I am pissed off, so when Jenn comes in she goes up to him and talks to him for like 15 mins, I was like okay he can talk to her but not me, well he proceeds to tell her he did it to get a rise out of me and planned on talking to me later. I love these games he plays, its ridiculous for a man his age to do this. Anywhoo, I got on with my night not speaking to him, but making my way around to say hi to everyone. I come back to the table and sit in a chair at the end of the booth, this guy who was way intoxicated comes up to me and says " I have to be honest, so I am gonna tell the truth" He looks at my chest and says " Honey, you have a great personality", I was like OMG....we were all crackin up and Sarah P. goes "She has a great rack too", he goes "No way I hadn't noticed, well I'll be damned she sure does." Its was so damn funny, we laughed for like 5 mins and he jus kept going on and on, it was great. After that whole ordeal, the Sara(h)s left and it was jus me Beth and Jai.

About this time, he makes his way over and sits next to me, and I am mad but act as if I don't care. We all carry on conversation and I make comment of his hair, and eye brows, and get a look at his new phone. Then Adam calls him back to the table, well needless to say he leaves his cigs their so I help myself to one, and that got his attention, so then all three of them come and join us. I made the mistake of calling Adam "andrew", why I don't know, I don't even know an Andrew....margaritas will do that to ya....the one guy who always was on my side I called the wrong name, go figure. So me and Jai chat it up with them for a bit, it was nice....then they decided they are gonna go to Scores so off they went. I had a fun time and it was funny when he asked Jodi if Adam had a big dick all the way across the restaurant, or grabbed Jenn's hand and stuck it under the table to feel if he was "shaved or not"...which it was a joke she didn't really feel... but the expression on her face was classic cuz she didn't know what was goin on. I told him he better have a "fun" time this weekend after all the trouble he has gone to, makin' him self all pretty and shavin'....he doesn't shave for jus anybody at least not in those parts...haha!

Other then all that excitement last night, everythings been rather low key. I am countin' down the days til Friday, because my Connor will be home, and I miss him so much. The festivities are up and runnin' but I'm not to sure when I will be able to get my happy ass down their...prolly not til I go friday with Connor. My week is pretty busy, full of work and school...blah! But ya gotta do what ya gotta do. I guess that's all I have to report for now, its only Tuesday so I am sure their will be more excitement to come along. Well I am off to class so I shall report back later!! Also Kyle Ray sent me and e-mail today, I miss him too, and the sad thing is we leave only minutes from each other, we are jus way busy!! Well I'm out...TIFFANY JAYNE~~Love Ya Kyle!!

Its Officially October!!

Well its a new month, my how fast this year has gone by!! With today being the first it means 3 more days til the fall festival and 7 more days till C-Dawg comes home!! Its gonna be a good month!! Well this has to be short because I am at work, but jus so everyone knows, my computer is totally messed up and I can't even log on to windows...it really sucks!! Alex is suppose to come over sometime this weekend and fix it for me so hopefully I will be back on soon. In the mean time, its friday and heres the weekend outlook:

Friday
Going to the Reitz vs. North Football game @ 7pm
The going with Jimmy and DC to see Ladder 49, so if anyone wants to go call the cell phone.

Saturday
Workin all damn day 10-2 then 4-8pm and then I have a feeling we will go see the band, thats just a guess I'm really not to sure yet.

Sunday
workin at schnucks 10-3pm....fun fun!!

as you can see not as busy as last weekend but still pretty full. H ope everyone has a great weekend and I sahll write again soon!! TIFFASPIFFARIFFAHIFF

Jus a quick hello

Well I am in the library, for the first time all year....I know shocking, and who do I see here?!?...none other than Scottie Foster, I thought it was a shock I was here, it was even more shocking he was here!! So we chatted it up a bit, and come to find out he will no longer be my partner in crime at the ol' schnucks due to his rigorous tennis schedule, so that was kind of disappointing. After talking to him I did manage to get some homework done, the feeling of accomplishment was nice, I should do it more often. Other than that my day was pretty low key, I talked to C-rabbit for about 45min today, that was nice. It amazes me what little things will catch my attention and remind me of him, I sound like I am dying without him, but thats not really the case. I am doin' better now that he's not around (school wise that is), and I hang out with the chicas more too. Its just that when someone has been a huge part of your life for the past 8 years or so, its weird not havin him their and its even more weird when people are like "Hey hows Connor doing, does he like it up their?" and I have to tell them yes, he loves it, which in turn means my hope of him hating it and coming back home has now been crushed, lol. Well enough about him....

The wedding went splendid and Erica looked absolutely fabulous!! I got too see the baby, which really isn't a baby anymore...he is adorable. It was nice having all the sisters together and partyin' it up. It was nice to play our song 'Respect' and then single-ing out Erica and playin "Dirty" from her sisters...gosh how I miss the goodtimes, especially when we were #1 during Greek Week, those days are gone but not forgotten. I got to see Lori Baumeyer and we chatted about River and Kyle Ray. I miss those days when River and Kyle crusied Green listen to Vanilla Ice, or goin' into Kuesters on Diamond to see what beer Kyle wanted for the weekend, finally realizing that "David" was River, seein' Kyle every afternoon after football practice, *sigh*.....Me and Lori B always talk about them, its definately our common ground, hating Ashley is our other common ground..hehe.. I did get to talk to Kyle Ray today online and that was nice, he sent me a big hug and told me one day when he gets off of work he will stop by and say hello, he such a busy man these days, its been so long since we have hung out!! Anywhoo, back to the wedding, it was very lovely and I am very happy for E, Derek seems awesome and they have a beautiful baby together.

Well my quick hello turned into a blast from the past, but I must head off now the library closes in 25mins and I don't wanna be locked in for good!! Night all, and take care...until next time.....TIFFANY JAYNE

The weekend outlook...

Its that time again...THE WEEKEND!! Another week of school down and this means another week closer to graduation!! I am so happy I got all that figured out and now I know when I will finally get my damn degree!! Anywhoo heres the outlook for this weekend:
Friday
Work 2:30-4pm then spendin' some quality time w/ Jenn, Ross, and Mike...the fab four back at it again, I miss those days!! After that @ around 10pm I am off to Harpoles with the Sara(h)'s and Jill and whoever wants to join, so hit up the cellular access if ya wanna go!!
Saturday--a long day!!
Get up and go to work from 10-2p at the shop, then go to work at Schnucks 4-5:30-ish, then its off to the reception(all the way in Boonville, Erica I mean shit, next time pick somewhere closer..haha) which will be a blast, I feel it already. The sorority back together, and all of us are finally 21....watch out, its gonna be crazy!! I am so excited, it sucks it takes one of us gettin' married to get us all back together again....*sigh* the good ol' days. Then after gettin' wasted there its off to go hear the band if they are playin that is, update the damn website JOSH!! I really lookin' forward to it, I can't wait!
Sunday
Work at schnucks 10-3pm, then laundry..so yea sunday sucks but I need it recover from Friday and Saturday!!

So theirs the run down kids, its a jam packed weekend of fun and alcohol, what more could their be?! Hope everyone has an awesome weekend and I shall write later!! T.HUPP~~SARAH P. U ROCK!!

A short sweet post...jus the way I like it

Well its late and I am really tired, but I thought why not fill ya in on my day before I call it quits. I got up ( A lil late..oops) and went to one of my classes today, which was rather fun. We made puzzle trains in groups and also got Scholasitc order forms, like the ones you use to get in Elementary school, where you could order all those cool, cheap books?! Well my teacher believes its never to early to start your book collection for teaching, so that was kind of cool. I then went to work at the shop, in which my manager Lori got me another job, yes I know I am mackin' it over here with 3 jobs!! Woot, Woot...anywhoo its a tutoring job with a 5th grader in math (I know laugh it up, poor girl could prolly teach me more in math then I can her) and Social Studies for $7/hr. So that was cool, because I sure could use the extra dough!! Then I went to work at the Ol' Schuncky's were me and Beth had a stupendous time!! Afterwards Jimmy came over and I helped him with his math (again laugh) and then I proof read his paper. Our show came on at 10p, "Rescue Me", so we took a study break then he typed his paper while I highlighted material in my book. So now here I am tired as hell from a rather long day and I still have a 5 pg. paper to type by 3pm tomorrow. Which I work 8-12p at schnucks then have class from 1:30-2:45p, so my plan is to get up at 5:30a and throw some B.S. together. I will let ya know how it goes...Have a goodnight everyone!! LATER, TIFF-A-ROO~~I MISS YA DADDY!!

Its amazing how people think they can keep secrets in such a small town

Hello again!! Its only tuesday....I wish it was thursday!!

So, I've decided I won't ever be able to live my life as a cold hearted bitch because well that jus not me. I care to much about the people in my life, and think that they always mean me no harm. I have decided however I won't put myself out their anymore and get walked all over, I'm just tired of being too nice and getting taken advantage of. I also admire one certain person who is so very hypocritical and doesn't mind leading people to believe what he wants. I was very impressed that he admitted to me that he told her the reson I called him about the away message was because I want him back in my life and I was trying to make him mad at her. I knew he made things look a little forthcoming on my end and I am glad to know that the reason I looked "psycho" is because he wants her to think I am trying to ruin whatever they may have. I truly wish I was a master of head games and manipulation, I wish I could lead people to believe numerous things that aren't really even close to the truth. Like telling me he doesn't want to take her to this supposed concert but then telling her I did what I did out of spite. It sure is a tangled web you weave and how you manage to not get caught up in it is way beyond me, only if I had your skills my life would be set. Congrats on the success!!

Lets see yesterday I went to class and then had a funtime with some awesome friends. Beth called and wanted me to go with her and Amanda to the mall so of course I was there. Her mom decided she wanted to go so she said she would pick us up, Beth informs us her mom is test driving a 2005 tahoe thats bermuda blue (blue/ green with green diamond dust) in which we will get to ride in, so we are excited to see this $50,000 vehicle in all its glory. I was highly impressed with it to say the least, she was test driving it to see if she liked it but she decided she wanted them to come down on the price some more and they wouldn't so...it was nice while it lasted. Then we went and picked up the grandparents Phyliss and Jerry, and went to the mall. Beth had to get some new scrubs for her new job at Deconess...Congrats Beth, and then we jus shopped around, which by the way our mall is looking pretty pathetique at the moment incase you haven't been in awhile. Then Tammy, Beths mom, treated us to dinner at TGIFridays and that was the end of our wonderful day of shopping. Then me and Beth met up with Sarah P. at the ol' Tumbleweed for $.99 maragritas and of course Jill, Jai, and Audra were already their so it was a fun time had by all. So monday was pretty entertaining and it was nice to hang out with Beth and the fam, its been awhile since we have done that...I love that family!!

So far today has consisted of school and laundry, and I think it will end with writing a paper with Misty and going to watch Jimmy play softball. Slightly more low key then yesterday but still busy as usual. Hope everyone has had a great start to their week and I shall write again soon!! TIFFASPIFFARIFFAHIFF

Hit counter @ 3:26p is 571...keeping visiting, and leave a comment every now and then or sign the guestbook!! Later tater

The weekend wrap up...

Another weekend come and gone...
Friday was fun, I went to the Reitz game which was awesome because we had a shut out against Harrison 14-0....another win to add to the season. Afterwards a few friends and I went back to the pizartment and drank some beer, nothin' to over whelming. Saturday I worked all day from 10-8pm, then the friends came back over, drank some more beer, and hung out. Sara H. called me and we went to Fast Eddies, which was packed from wall to wall, and drank some more beer. Saw some old friends while we were there and definitely took in the sites!! Then I got home about 2am and pretty much passed out not much longer after that because I had to work at 10am this morning. So today I just worked from 10-3p which was actually fun, Beth, Lauren, and Scottie were working so I jus was chattin' it up with them which made time go by fast. Then I came home and watched some football with DC and he jus left to go play softball, so here I am writin' in the ol' blog. As you can see the weekend wasn't very eventful, but I think I like it that way, it was jus chill time with friends. Jesse came home so I got to see him and I realized that I miss him a lot too!! His hair has gotten so long and "fluffy" and when he wears a hat it sticks out around the edges, its cute!! Baumgart also burnt me the Garden State soundtrack, so that was exciting, thx a bunch Baum-dizzle.

J-Skizzle went out on a "date" friday and saturday, with a most awesome guy!! I told her she can't mess it up and to not be her normal "whore-ish" self because he is an awesome guy, so we will see what comes around with that. I saw my "mom and dad" this weekend and she made me feel bad because I never go see them anymore!! They were like just because Connors gone doesn't mean you can't stop by...so I must make a point to get by there and at least say hello every now and then. Other than all that not much else to report, I did get called a "fucken psycho" this weekend...that was a new one, I had never been called that before, it was rather humorous to say the least.

Well peeps and peepettes, I think I may go do some homework....ok probably not but its the thought that counts. Hope everyone had a great weekend and I shall write again soon, take care!! TIFFANY

A quote to add humor to your day: "An intellectual is someone who has found something more interesting than sex" Edgar Wallace

we are in college aren't we..

"Why do people you've never talked to read your away messages, then get all up in a tizzy about you calling them out on it? If you steal my screenname from your ex-boyfriends list, all is fair game on what I put on my away messages. You didn't have to read it in the first place. We're in college, not kindergarten."

I don't quite remember getting in a "tizzy" nor was I ever called out on anything, I was told "He doesn't appreciate you waking him up to call and tell him what my away message says" I wouldn't consider that being called out, especially when I didn't do anything Wrong to be called out on, I didn't steal your name because it was yours so please don't flatter yourself, this happened way before you were even in the picture, romantically, so to speak. You are right though I don't have to read it, just like you don't have to read my blog that you searched to find according to him because you saw on MY AWAY MESSAGE that it said I had just finished updating it. Also don't act like you haven't called regarding things you read on here, because I do remember him saying that this was the way you had found out we had spoken and you also made comment about me knowing Scottie, I guess in the end this just proves neither one of us is better then the other.

I am done with the away message game and the blog posting game, because really what's the point?! We don't know each other and really have no reason what so ever to be acting like "kindergarteners". So I call an amends and you can say what you want but I am done...besides someone needs to be the bigger person, so I will take that step!!

To everyone else who has no clue what's going on or why the hell I posted that....WHAT'S UP!! Some exciting news in my life today...I GOT A 92% ON MY MATH TEST!! Yes, I know please don't faint....I can hardly believe it myself!! I am so proud, as well as is Connor and Andrea...they didn't know I was capable of such work!! So that was a great way to end another week of school....now the goal is to do it again on the next one. I am gettin ready to head off to work so I must keep it short. I think the plans for tonight are the Reitz game vs. Harrison and then seein' good ol' Jesse Roby, who has been MIA since he left for school. So it should be a fun time had by all....have a greeeaaat weekend!! Later Tater, TIFFASPIFFARIFFAHIFF

Connor, miss ya love ya, bye!!
Congrats George on the bid!!
Jimmy thanks for watchin Rescue Me with me all las night, it was a blast!!
Kyle Ray, call me I miss you!!
Michael Dildo, congrats on the job you worthless piece of crap!!
Hymie, love you!!
Mel, miss ya!!
and I am out...peace!!

People amaze me sometimes....

I often wonder to myself if people really think before they act. I wonder if people realize that everything they hear (or aren't told) is 100% truth and if they shouldn't check the source before buying into!? I have obviously been projected to someone as " a nosy, "away message reading", run back and tell people everything" type of person. Well honestly ya see its jus not quite like that, but none the less someone can only believe what they are told. It jus really bothers me I have someone placing judgement on me from only words said by an ex, and then IMing me telling me how he feels, I do believe he is a big boy and can handle his own business, and if it was so bad me calling he sure didn't hesitate to call me the next night around 10:30p as we laughed that it was only "a study date." What can I say, lifes to short to take things so serious, lighten up and quit worryin about what time I decide to call.

Anywhoo, my night was pretty low key..went to class and then ate dinner with the fam..thats always fun!! We had salad and steak, then I went home to do some dishes and clean the place up a lil. Jimmy called and decided to stop by for awhile and we ended up watching "Rescue Me" on FX; which BTW is a very very good show...and yea here I am typin' away. So needless to say a rather slow and uneventfully night, jus relaxed and watched some TV. It was nice though, this week has been pretty busy with work and school. I think the plans for tomorrow are school, work, game and then the almighty Jesse will return for a weekend jam packed full of fun! (so he thinks...hahaha!!)

Well I guess I am done for now, hope everyone enjoys their weekend and I will write at chya later!! TIFFANY JAYNE~~~miss you Kyle Ray!!

Its almost friday!!

Well another week almost come and gone, how sweet is that!! Haven't done to much other than school and work...which really I think thats about enough for now. I did however go to the ol' Tumbleweed monday night that was a fun time until the drama....but get me, the Sara(h)'s, Jill, Jai, and Brooklyn together...theirs gonna be drama...but it makes for such a fun time!! So B drove all the way across town to come join in the fun and they wouldn't let her in cuz they were closed...so of course she told them how she felt and blah, blah, blah....it was interesting. We decided that she drove all this way, we were gonna go out...so we go to Chilly Willy's, well for me and Brooklyn it was like a high school reunion!! Seein' people we hadn't seen in years, it made for a fun night though, I saw Brookie Sue, Jeff Todd, David Winterheimer, Josh Messic, Matt Saubier, Jared Kelly, Justin Parker, Ashley, and then Greggy went with us. So yea it was pretty crazy....but we had fun!! I finally left at midnight and had to be at work at 8am, so I was a lil tired but it was well worht it.

Thats really all my excitment for the week so far, other then Scottie at work!! OMG...he had me laughin so damn hard Tuesday night, that guy is full of suprises!! As he well knows he got what he deserved and I loved it!! If it wasn't for Scottie 2 Hottie and Lauren tuesday, work would have sucked...since I was there 9 hours!! Well theirs a quick blog about my non-exciting week so far, I hope to have wondermous stories about the weekend though, Jesses suppose to be home, and I get to go to the game tomorrow so it should be a funtime had by all!!

Peace out girl scout...Tiffy J

My Trials and Tribulations

My Trials and Tribulations Well here I sit waiting for my next class, in the lovely computer lab. I figured why not do a quick blog since it has been forever and a day since I have posted. Not a whole lot has been going on really, jus workin it up at Schnucks and my new job at 2nd Hand Chic on Broadway. I have been partyin' it up though with the Sara(h)'s, Brooklyn, Ali, and Natalie...which has been so much fun!! To bad I have spent all my money on liquor, but u'll have that when ur 21 and trust me its been well worth it!!

Shout out to my lil bro JW who jus turned 17 on Saturday, my, my how you have grown!! Other then that peeps I have jus been hangin out doing the school thing. I did get to talk to an old (no pun intended..hehe)friend last night who I haven't heard from in forever!! It was nice to chat with him and talk about old times, I MISS YOU HYMIE!! I can't blame him for leaving though, if I could move to Hawaii I would be all over it!!

Well theirs a nice little update for all you Tiffaspiff fans, I will be sure to try and update more often, I know the suspense kills ya!! Until next time, take care and see ya later!! LOVE TIFFANY JAYNE

ITS HUMP DAY!!

Its my favorite day of the week, wednesday!! To bad its only wednesday, and too bad the weekend doesn't have a great outlook either!! Lets see I work friday, saturday, sunday...but I am really starting to get use to it, so I guess its not that bad. I got a new job which is exciting, my bro's friends mom owns a store off of broadway called 2nd Hand Chic and I start working there on saturday..I am kind of excited it shall be a good time I am sure. I only work 10-2pm, but I am hoping I can pick up like one more day a week jus for the extra cash. Labor Day weekend was a fine time indeed, even though I worked every single day, which really sucked!! I went out to the fams in Poseyville and had a blast!! I went four-wheelin', we drank, roasted marshmellows, sang kareoke, and camped out. It was a fun time, too bad I have like 800 mosiquito bites from campin'....no seriously...I counted 35 on jus one leg!! Its horrible, its like having chicken pox all over again!!
Other than all that stuff, my week has been pretty low key, jus goin to class and hangin' out...nothin too stressful yet...I am still lookin for a new place to live so if anyone has any info let me know!! I think tonight I am gonna go to a meeting for SEAC for education majors and then possible out to the ol' time out lounge...I haven't decided yet!! Who knows....well, hope everyone has a good rest of the week and I shall write later!!
Peace out girl scout!! TIFFASPIFF

*C-RABBIT I MISS YOU!!!*....but I am glad ur havin fun!!...call me one day!!

Everything is sooo overrated!!!

Well another wonderful evening of work...the first of my 4 straight days, I hope the rest go this fast!! I'm happy though because I really need the money and the fact that Steph is actually giving me hours must mean I am doing something right?!

I've decided that I need to prioritize my life, because I think I worry to much about whats not important or really should posses my time and energy. I have come to the conclusion after Dr. Browning [my education professor] read us this story in class http://www.snowwowl.com/gwritmayojar.html. It really is true and unfortunately relates to my life. I put so much energy into things that really won't even matter in the end. So I think I may re-evaluate my life and figure out what I really should do, and stop worrying about stupid things.

On a lighter note, my first week of school went rather well...I think I may actually suprise some people with how well I do. I just want to get it over with, so I can say I did it and be the best darn teacher ever!! Degrees are way over rated,DO I really need a piece of paper to say what kind of teacher I will be?!...Well maybe but I don't think it should require so much work!!

Other then school my life has been about the same, I watched The Girl Next Door with Baumgart the other night, it was pretty good....we seem to like a lot of the same movies which is cool cuz no one else will watch those with me, so we bond that way.Well I guess thats it for now...I am gonna watch some TV and prolly go to bed, what an exciting Friday night?! You kids have fun and I will write at chya later...Tiffany Jayne

Drama....the story of my life

So no matter what I do I have come to realize that life will always give me the shitty hand....Just when I think things are starting to get better, I get shit on yet again...I swear!! I wish I could go back to when things were simple and easy...I didn't have to worry about money, work, a roof over my head, school (at least not college)....being an adult really sucks!!

Anyways, schools going rather well....my class seem like they will be rather simple and I have "friends" in my classes so I am not alone. School seems like the only thing at the moment actually going okay, maybe its because I have only been there 2 days now....none the less I am looking forward to this semester.

Other then that I have just been catching up with old friends; Ross, Jenn, Mike, Chum, etc. Its nice to know that no matter what I have people who enjoy my company regardless of how shitty my life is goin'. I also appreciate someone else (who seems to think their life is shittier) for listenin to me bitch and complain, and always tellin me it will be okay and life could be worse...so thanks buttface!!

Well I need some shut eye, hope everyones doin' great and enjoyin school! Nighty night kiddies....TIFFY J

So much for my happy ending

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

(chorus)

My how time flys when ur havin fun....

Well lets see, I start school in the morning and I am not sure how I feel about that. I am excited because it means I am getting closer to my goal, but it also means my summer is offically over. Melinda left this morning which was sad, we actually had a pretty good visit!! Connor came home friday to see her and go to the game (which we got our ass beat) and he left this afternoon to go back up to BSU. So here I sit by my lonesome and thinkin about how I really hope this is a great semester. All my "adult" friends are back to the ol' ville and its great. I had great conversation with Jennaben last night, and its nice to know Mike and Andrea are right up the road. DC told me he will help me with my math, and Saif said if I wanna go to lunch on our break on Mon. and Wed. to give him a call. I think for the most part this will shape up to be a pretty good semester, my classes aren't too hard plus I know most of my professors.

I went to the movies tonight with Baumgart and we saw Garden State which is a really awesome movie!! Everyone should definately go see it, Zach Braff is amazing!! So I definately recommend that everyone go see it, its funny and educational for all.

Its also DC's Bday today, so Happy Birthday!!! Well kids I must get some shut eye, I shall write more frequently from now on!! Have a good day tomorrow and later tater, TIFFANY

its been awhile...

Hey there, I feel like I have been so neglectful but really, I just have nothing to write about. I would like to wish my mom Peggy and my older bro Brett happy birthday though!! How cool is it their b-day is on the same day...weird. Well, Connor leaves in 4 days....and I really don't think it will set in until hes been gone for awhile. He told me he's not gonna answer his phone that I have to e-mail him...which I think it may be more fun that way anyway. Its gonna be hard though because I am so use to just picking up a phone everytime I need to tell him something, and things won't be that way anymore. O well....life must go on...

Besides that I have just been working and playing a lot of sand volleyball. I watched Mystic River the other day, it was pretty good...different, but good. Football is kicking off this weekend, and of course I have to miss the first game due to work...but thats okay because I will have the rest of the season off. I'm excited that fall is just around the corner...I love it, football, fall festival, halloween....what a great season!! I also spoke to someone in which I hadn't for awhile...which as much as I hate to say it...it was nice. I really wish thier wasn't so much in the past that holds us back, it seems like we can't go through one convo with out one of us throwing something from 2 years ago in each others face. Its very stupid, but its hard to let go of all of it...but I do try really hard. Its weird though because we both seem rather happy at this point and have multiple things going on....but I still feel like he should be there by my side...I guess becasue he was for so long. Anywhoo....enough of that mess....I have to work tonight which is really horrid and I would rather not but someone has to bring home the bacon, and well since I live alone I guess I shall do it!! I did get to talk to KT for awhile yesterday which was nice, I love her to death...but she definatley made some comments that were not needed....like making out in the oasis..blah blah blah....I told her when we were leaving I was gonna kill her and that he probably though I told her we have something going on (which we don't)...she goes oh he knows I am just kidiing....I sure hope so..I am afraid he thinks I am telling people stuff that isn't true..which for the record I am not!! Other then all this not much has been goin' on...pretty boring life I lead!! I must get in the shower now....but I shall write again soon....I promise!! Love, Tiffany

What a weekend!!!!!! No Really!!

It was a crazy crazy weekend....good during some parts and totally crazy others. Friday night we played some major sand volleyball out at USI, their was about 10 of us, me and B-Wam being the only 2 chicas, which was cool. I had some pretty awesome plays, like when I spun around and landed on my ass, or when I stuck one hand out and hit to the other side of the parking lot...fun times!! Then DC, Mr. Competitive himself, told me to sit out cuz I sucked....which kinda pissed me off because I go their to play for fun not to take it seriously...but if you're with 8 guys I assume that is to be expected, its all about who wins. So anywhoo, that wrapped up my friday.

Saturday I woke up bright and early and went to Kentucky Kingdom with the fam. I was totally dreading going because I knew it was just gonna suck big balls...but to my surprise it wasn't all that bad. My bro is a lil pussy and wouldn't ride any roller coasters with me...so that sucked but we had fun. Then we I got home Connor called and was like "Come out to Andy's, its a partay!!". So even though it was 11pm and I was so damn tired, I went. Needless to say everyone their was drunk except me (and Jimmy..)and havin a goodtime...Baumgart had a few memorable moments needless to say and Damin was rockin' out with the keg stands. Then some crazy crazy shit happened....some people started fightin' and it was scary. I will never forget it, and I will never forget watchin' one of my best friends get hit right in front of my face. I still feel so bad about the situation, I know it wasn't my fault, and DC knows I was just tryin' to calm him down but to be standin with inches of someone when they get hit, and your the only one their at the time is f*cked up!! Needless to say though DC made sure they left hurtin a hell of a lot worse then that one punch hurt him. It was so messed up, I felt like a douche because I was cryin' but it scared me and I felt so bad. Next to Connor he is definately without a doubt my BFF, and it just sucked!! At least they didn't hurt his sexy face...hehe.. DC I LOVE YOU!! So that was my exciting saturday that was totally crazy, he stayed at my place with me and we didn't go to bed until 4 am just talkin about it all then he crawled upstairs (haha) and I was downstairs ( for those who didn't know I have bunkbeds and I call the top my upstairs) and we went to sleep.

So sunday rolled around and I went to work...which wasn't too bad actually. Then I went and saw Jasons new place, which is very nice, I took him to get a hair cut then I went back home. Connor and all them were going to see Snoop Dogg, so I had planned on jus chillin at home and enjoyin a lovely night to myself. Of course nothin goes as planned and Connor ended up with 2 extra tickets sooo, me and Jenni went with them. It sucked until Snoop got out, which the concert started at 7:30p....he didn't come out til 10:30....their was an hour break before he came where they did absolutely nothin'...then he was only out for about 40min. I mean Snoop was totally awesome but it sucked....So then we all came home and watched WRONG TURN...pretty good movie if I say so myself and yea that was it. Oh, it was Duanes 21st bday today so I called and talked to him which was cool, he was pretty drunk but that can be expected. I miss him a lot and I totally hate how we didn't talk forever, we were such good friends, which is what I miss. Hes doin good which is cool and has a g/f of over a year, so it sounded like things were on the up and up. It was just nice to talk to him and know we can still talk to each other. So as you can see crazy random weekend, but all in all it was fun!! On that note I am gonna go...ttyl....TJH

Daily Quote: "Give a man a free hand and he'll run it all over you." Mae West.

A Compliment never hurt....

Scottie 2 Hottie


This guy you see here is Mr. Scott Foster, and this guy made my day today. I was at work and he happened to be their too (well mainly because he works their as well). He was sittin' their telling me a story, and I noticed he was like staring at me, then he started talking slower. I was like what are you looking at.....he said you...I was wondering why you got all "dolled up" to come to work. I was like I'm not dolled up, he said you never wear lipstick and your hair is usually in a ponytail. I was like sorry I didn't mean to startle you, he said its okay you look nice. What a sweetheart, no one has paid me a compliment in a long time, and for it to come from Mr. Scottie 2 Hottie himself, who thinks he is gods gift to women...it ment a lot..and trust me he thinks that just ask him!! So needless to say he made my day!! BTW Goodluck in City this weekend, I know you said you need all you can get...and you're not joking..lol!!!

Your the bestest friend anyone could ever have...

To my BFF, C-Rabbit..

I know you absolutely hate this song!! But in all honesty I feel this is how our friendship is...you know me better then anyone including myself....and I love that I have you to fall back on...you are my strength and you have always been their to pick up my pieces. And lord knows you never let me stay mad, or sad, or unhappy...it is your mission to make me smile...and I thank you!! I also kno that when mon, tues, weds, etc..rolls around while your gone..I will be so thrilled when you call!! Thanks for knowing all the pieces of me...

Pieces Of Me
On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cuz you've come to rescue me

Fall... With you, I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath, I hope it lasts

[Chorus:]Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

I am moody, messy
I get restless, and it's senseless
How you never seem to care
When I'm angry, you listen
Make me happy it's a mission
And you won't stop til I'm there

Fall... Sometimes I fall so fast
Well, I hit that bottom
Crash, you're all I have

[Chorus:]Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
OhhhhhIt's as if you known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

How do you know everything I'm about to say?
Am I that obvious?
And if it's written on my face...I hope it never goes away... yeah

On a Monday, I am waiting
And by Tuesday, I am fading into your arms...So I can breathe

"Jimmy say something?"

This night went from the same ol' same...to well..interesting....
I got off work and went to moms to say hello, and then JB called so we met up at my place and we watched TV for awhile. I then decided I wanted a creamslush from Sonic and we left to go get one and on the way we saw Chris and Andy D. We chatted with them for awhile...even though they were both rather intoxicated....we decided to go back to my place and watch more TV..which was rather boring because their was jacksh*t on. So at about 12:30am JB decided to leave and go home...he told me before he left he was gonna go get gas and go home. At about 12:50am their is a knock at my door, I figured it maybe Jenn or someone so I go to answer it and its him. I 'm not sure if it was just me but it seemed like he was their for a minute before he said anything...his face was red...and I thought he had been crying...my heart dropped. I though someone was hurt or dead for that matter....he proceeds to say "I need you to do me a favor, Chris is drunk and cryin' and I need you to drive his car home"....I was so relieved it was that and nothin' worse...even though we had no clue why he was crying. So I drove his car home...cuz its a manual and well I am the only one who knows how to drive one...and JB followed us so he could bring me back home. Come to find out he was just upset about random things, and I think the beer made it a little more intense then usual. I will never forget they way JB looked standing in the door way it was so crazy....nor will I forget the way I felt...I was like "Jimmy say something, anything, please!!"..it was jus so weird. So for future reference never come to my door after you say you are going home and just stand their at least say hi or something..this applys to everyone. We got a good laugh out of it on the way back to my place though...

So Connor had been gone for a little over a day and I have talked to him 4times...this really makes me wonder how the hell I will survive a week or more when hes at school. Dependency is definately a bad thing...I have learned that twice now..once with him...and another with "the one I shall not speak of". Speaking of him....even though I am not allowed....I heard through the grape vine he had a few words with Beth the other day. This is cool and all but either she or he has stories mixed up...because what she said isn't making since nor is it correct. I know hes happy, and I really truly am happy for him, its about time! I just don't understand the situation I guess. I care about him a lot, and I often want to call and check in...but a.) I know he won't answer and b.) I think its best this way. I have decided they only time I will call is to tell him I finally accomplished what I set out to do, and what he helped me to achieve....granted I am sure his number will be different 10 years from now..lol.. but hey it won't hurt to try!! He made a big impact on my life...like I am sure he will hers...I definately learned a thing or two....and one of those is what its like to be loved.

Anywhoo....times have changed and so have we....but the memories last forever....and thats what I take with me. I told my bro I would come spend the day with him tomorrow...can't you see the excitment on my face?!...yea, me neither. So I think we are going to do fun bro/sis type things since he starts school on Wednesday. I also get paid tomorrow which is funtimes had by all...because it means I am not broke for at least one day of the week. Other then that I am not sure what I will do..I know C-Dawg will get home sometime tomorrow and I will prolly see him. But really no other plans so far....as usual. Well I am off to dreamland....hopes it a good one with a real hot guy...lol...only in my dreams....nighty night...TIFFERS

Daily Quote: "An alcoholic is anyone you don't like who drinks more than you do." Dylan Thomas. ...cheers!!

It was a tragedy...at least in my world

So last night as I was gettin' ready to get online...I got an error with AOL saying that they need to fix my internet connection. I was like okay I can handle that no prob....but then in the middle it just stopped....and it wouldn't even let me sign on!! I was like oh noooo....so I uninstalled it and put it back on twice and it kept doing the same thing. I finallly gave up and shut my computer off thinkin' maybe after some down time it shall return to normal. I get up and try it again and of course the tragedy continued. I decided to uninstall it one more time and reinstall it..and I'll be darn here I am. Computers are so moody sometimes, it jus bugs me too no end!! The good news is I am up and running again...and hopefully it stays this way.

Well lets see..last night was pretty uneventful...to say the least. I did however watch The Wood, which is a really good movie. Funniest thing, my mom gave me a free rental thing from blockbuster last night, which is the only reason I went there, cuz usually I am all about Premiere. So we pull up and Saif's car is their and we are like"this will be interesting". We pray that hes not with Sydney because then that will just be weird and awkward and besides "hes done with her"..blah blah blah. So as we approach the door and look in its none other then my bestest bud in the whole widest world..HANNAH!!! We were so relieved, and it was just funny the 4 of us were their...so me and Hannah go off and talk about our girl stuff while I send JB to go find us a movie. So I guess they are doing "the same ol twostep"..haha...when it comes to those two...which sucks because shes an awesome girl stuck in a really sticky situation. I reassured her it will all work out and to just have fun...and she reassured me that she is...LOL. So any whoo he picked out The Wood...and we watched that which was cool...I had never seen it and I really liked it. Good Choice!! I also finally finished FInding Nemo yesterday, it is such a cute movie, I think everyone should watch it!! JB even liked it and trust me he wasn't all about watchin it...but its cute and its nice to revert to childhood every now and then.

Well my day today is following the same uneventful path, I have to work 4-8pm and then yea...no plans what so ever. I hope C-Dawg, Jesse, and Baum are having fun in the STL...I really wish I would have gone....but they needed male bonding time. Well I get paid tomorrow which will be exciting and then yea.... Gosh y must my life be so boring, I feel like I do the same damn thing all the time. Well, I do but...its fun none the less...even though I do complain. I think I am gonna try and get peeps to go play volleyball tonight...it sounds exciting...and fun. Who knows...well kids time to start my wondermous day...have a good one yourself...and I shall write later...Tiffany Jayne (I miss my Kyle Ray!!)

Daily quote: "Love is temporary insanity curable by marriage." Ambrose Bierce.

It seems like I wasted another day of my summer. I didn't get up until 12:30pm but that could be because I didn't go to sleep until 6:00am, not that I minded because I was in good company. Also the name of the movie we couldn't think of last night is "Man of the House", in case you were still wondering. We tried to watch Finding Nemo last night because I begged, but by this time it was 3:30am and I was so freakin' tired. Finally my eyes hurt so bad and I felt so tired I had to go to sleep. Of course once I went and got into bed, I couldn't fall asleep, thus making it 6am before I finally went to bed. It was cool though, we shared a few laughs such as; "slowpitch
? no only the 40, 60, and 65 work"..lololol...before finally falling asleep. It was nice to have him there...I am glad that things haven't really changed...because I definitely love layin next to him and having our late night conversations.

So once I did get up almost half the day was gone..I tried to watch the rest of Nemo but I was rudely interrupted by C-Dawg, who wanted me to go to the dentist with him, how exciting!! NOT! Being the great friend I am I went and sat their thinking how I could so be at home finishing my movie. We left and went to the Post office, then to his house, then to get his oil changed, and then to dinner at Tumbleweed...were I enjoyed a peach Marguerita..yum!! We decided that we were both exhausted so we went back to my place and slept for 3 hours...then when I woke up I guess he did too and since I have bunk beds he sat up and slung his legs over the edge to get down and hit me in the head....Thus giving me a major headache. Which I still have 2 tylenol later...we watched Road Rules and the assistant and now I am sittin' here with a horrible headache tryin' to decide if I want somethin to eat.

As you can see I had such an excitin' day...full of absolutely nothin'...but it was nice cuz C-Dawgs gonna be gone for three days then I have to work when he gets back...so we spent our quality time together. I keep thinkin' how different my life will be when he is gone...but the good thing is he will be home that first weekend after his classes start and then we figured twice in October and once in November and then X-mas break in December...and these are the bare minimums...so its not like I will never see him...plus I can always drop by and surprise him..LOLOL...Its just sad because he will be gone in 16 days...

Well peeps I am gonna end this long boring post, and prolly eat a bowl of cereal...sounds yummy!! Take care and I shall write again soon!! Love, TIFFERS

I have decided to put up a daily quote..because well...we all need a little somethin' to live by. "Love is the answer - but while you're waiting for the answer sex raises some pretty good questions." Woody Allen.

The one I shall not speak of....

Someone once told me, "If you don't like it then don't read it"....I am going to have to say this applys to this situation as well. I use this blog for myself, not for anyone elses enjoyment or entertainment. I do not write in here to piss people off (which I now know of twice this happening) or to hurt feelings, I use it to vent....because trust me my friends get tired of hearing the same damn shit regarding the same damn people....because I am way over dramatic like that. So I am sorry if I offend, upset, piss off, or hurt someone in my writings but, I use it to vent and thats all....If you have a problem feel free to confront me..thats why their is an area to leave comments.
Any whoo...other then that my life has been rather normal...no complete drama, no worries, no nothin...its been nice....I have been workin' alot though...which is good..I need the money. It seems like things have gotten better at work..I get along with everyone a lot more...which is awesome..I don't feel like I am the outcast any more. I went and saw "the village" with 20 people...I know damn thats a lot of people to go to the movies but we had a blast...It wasn't at all what I expected...its not a scary movie, like it was advertised. Their were parts that were scary, but its a crazy, crazy movie..I definately loved it...even though most didn't, because its not what the previews build ya up for.
So I have met this girl named Hannah through some other friends of mine, and she is totally awesome. At first I was like...I dunno about her....she appears to be rather girly and I thought she was gonna be ditzy and dumb...but looks can be decieving. It was funny because I found out she is going out with someone that I have met through "the one I may not speak of"....so then we kind of bonded with that whole situation. She's been hangin out with us a lot but I have kept my distance due to me well...jus bein me. But when we went to the movies we sat together and totally talked for awhile...(I mean we were there 40 min early)....it was a great bonding expierence!! We have a lot in common like, we both hate girls, guys suck and we always get fucked over, and we both have a great sense of humour ;) Shes an awesome person, to bad shes leavin' to go back to IU....things never fail. Hopefully we can keep in touch, I love her to death!!
Well I guess thats it for now, I lead such an exciting life!!! Its off to bed....which hopefully will leave me with more to write about later....I can't beleive he's staying...how excitin'...more to come later!! Night, Tiffy J

Why do I do it to myself?

Why do I even look, its not like I wanna know what it says, I know everytime its going to hurt when I read it. I mean I guess I do want to know because it the only way I know I can keep up on stuff, but at the sametime I know how I will feel when I am done, because its nothing I really want to hear. What can I say, I'm the stupid one, why do I even care...its not like they care....?!!? Who knows...uggghhhh....

On a lighter note I went and saw "the Village" last night, and let me tell ya don't go expecting a scary movie....Its a very good movie, if you understand what he is doing, but the previews build you up to think it will scare the living sh*t out of you. The theatre was packed, every single seat was full, and it was funny to see peoples reactions after we left...the were so disappointed and so many people bitched. I can see why because most of those who went wouldn't have gone had it been advertised for the kind of movie it was....but at the sametime...it was good.

Well, I don't know much else, I am in progress of building a webpage so my "advid" readers can have a simple way to access all my wonderful writings. It will also have some pics of me and friends that should be rather interesting, so when I am done I will let everyone know.

*Starting today 29 days til school starts..how exciting*

Well have a great night and I shall write to ya later, Tiffany

Where to begin?!

               Well today was quite interesting; I got to see Mike whom, I haven't seen since school got out, and we went to eat..It was nice! While sittin' at dinner Andrea proceeded to burst ever bubble of hope I have ever had about love and its existence. I love her to death, and I know where she is coming from and I most definitely understand it, but at the sametime...Can't a girl dream?!?! Though I have always been told that I dream to much and don't pay enough attention to reality; well reality sucks!!! I refuse to conform!!
 
Pondering Question: (this will be rather long,please excuse me)

1. What is love, how do you know you're in love? I was told you know you're in love because, you just know. Its just something you feel and you just know. Well I have thought I was in love twice, and the second time was way different from the first, but I thought I was in love with them . I also feel if you love someone you make it last, you work through everything regardless, so if a relationship ends then it wasn't really love, because if it was it would have never ended. Maybe this is very naive, but in my "dream" world love can make it through anything, I was then told that love is not perfect nor is it eternal. I know its not eternal because it dies with you, and I also know its not perfect because you face hardships, but love should be what pulls through in the end, it shouldn't be what you give up because its the easy way out.

While talking with these friends tonight it has caused me to wonder what the hell is going on in my world. It has caused me to think why I over analyze things and make something big out of nothing. For example, I went to the funny bone with a couple of friends and in his act he was talking about how his ex-wife asked him what color her eyes where and how he didn't know. She proceeded to say, Cosmo said that you truly love me if you know what color my eyes are...well we got home and were discussing it, and I went around and asked Connor and Jesse and they didn't know. As I was laying next to JB, I asked him and he said green...I proceeded to say lucky guess..he then fired back with "I have always known what colors your eyes are." For that moment I felt special, as if he may actually really pay attention to me....this is me making a big deal out of nothing....but it felt good to know that he knew.. 3 days later it was me, Connor and Saif and we were sitting their and I randomly said to Saif "What color are my eyes?"...He said "Green"...very calmly without hesitation....it freaked me out...I was like how did you know, he said he just did....after leaving I was talking to Connor and I was like that was so crazy he knew...he said, "well Tiffany its not like you don't put it in all those surveys and stuff", but I don't send them to Saif I don't have an e-mail address for him....this would possibly explain why Jimmy knew, but I would like to believe its just something he has noticed.  To me its a big deal if a guy knows this, why..I am not sure, but I feel that means at one point in time he has noticed and took note of it, not for any reason other then to be aware. Connor was like why is this such a big deal, jus drop it...but for some reason to me it matters and I need to find out why...uugghhh!!

I don't know, I jus need to let things be, and not worry so much....accept them how they are regardless of if its what I like or not. I feel so strongly though about fate, and that things happen for a reason....I believe in true love, and love at first sight, that everyone has a soul mate....I know, I am just a dreamer...who needs to realize things aren't that way, but I want to believe it so bad....I want to think one day I will meet someone who will love me for me and what I have to offer, and see I am truly genuine and not a sell out....guess I will just keep dreamin'....nighty night..Tiffany

I DID IT!!!

Well kids I got an A in my summer class, I am so proud!! Its exciting to know that if I really try and put effort into a class I can get an A, its not impossible, I just need to apply myself a lil more often!!
 
I went bowling last night with Connor and Jimmy, it was funtimes. I also got to see Amanda Melton (Gulsen), its been a long time since I saw her but it was nice. We use to have a blast together it was great!! It amazes me how much people change and how fast people grow apart. I remember we were gonna be each others brides maids and how we were gonna run away to California with Ryan and Brandon n 8th grade.....what douches we were!! Anyways I need to let everyone know that I BEAT JIMMY BOWLING!! I know hes prolly gonna get mad cause I made a big deal about it, but he has to understand that it doesn't happen too often and when it does I get a little excited about the situation. I would have beat him twice but we decided to through that game out (mainly cause he didn't want me to beat him twice ;)...j/k...
It was a fun time I haven't bowled in forever and it was nice to do something different and fun!!
 
Well rumor around town is Melinda will be here in a month or so. I am excited because I haven;t seen her in a long time, I just hope things aren't gonna be like they were last time. Its crazy we have been friends for 7 years and live thousands of miles apart, ok maybe not that many but Florida is a long way away. I really have no clue what we are gonna do when she's here, she's been here 3 times and there is only so much you can do in Evansville. O well I am sure we will manage, to bad she's not 21 yet, we could hit up the bars. I can't wait to see her it will be fun times I am sure.
 
I need to take a moment and thank Andrea for being the one person who understand me!! Its weird how different we are but yet we have a common ground and get along so great. I feel as if we have become a lot closer this summer and I like it. I always thought we were too different to be the kind of friends who hung out for fun, but I think our differences are what bring us together!! Thanks for always listening, telling me I can succeed if I want it, educating me in the things for which I have no clue about, and help me understand myself!! Your a great friend and I appreciate greatly!!
 
Well kids I need to get in the shower and start my day, have a great day and I will "write" to ya later!! Love, Tiffers