Wow...its been a long while since I have wrote...maybe this is why my life has been so hectic?!?!....Where to begin.....I have 2 weeks left of school which is exciting but at the sametime it seems like everything is due all at once and it really really sucks!!! Along with my semester coming to an end, this leaves only a few weeks left before the class of 2004 graduates. A class in which I have became friends with a lot of great people. I always seem to get shit for being friends with people so much younger then me and I still to this day don't understand why.....I often wonder that if now since they will be in college if thir age will still matter...??...my guess is no....I mean really why does age matter when it comes to friendship....or even love for that matter....people are sooo superficial and it really erks me...It cracks me up that my "high school" friends are so concerned with what car they drive, who they go to prom with, who they fall in love with, what college they go to, material possesions, who their friends are now, and etc.....what they don't know is that after graduation none of this even matters.....since the beginning of my freshman yr of college I don't even talk to the same people I did in school, as a matter of fact my closest friends now I didn't even speak to in high school.....we still talk from time to time checkin up on each other but their is no hangin out on the weekends and doin this, that, and such. They all tell me they will be different that they will stay in touch and remain friends...and I believe the people who stay here will do so but I am not so sure about the ones who leave. I never discuss now my ex-b/f from high school, or my car I drove, or my group of friends, or who I took to prom.....high school is over and those things are left in the past....and really its not like a mkae new friends based on that either....and the friends I have now that I once "hated", are my friends because we realized that the drama shit is over and really the reasons we never got along were stupid and pointless, and that all we did was lose out on time that we could have been friends, but our image and what people thought was too important.
I do hope that they don't look back and have regrets like I did, I wish I would have kept playin b-ball and softball, I wish I would have gone to JR. Prom, I wish I would have danced with Skyler when he asked, I wish that me and Lindsey never faught, and that Amanda never moved, and the list goes on and on.......but I hope they can say that they did all they could and that they had valid reasons for holding back when they did....lifes to short to hold back and now that highschool is over....they will all realize that...I mean shit I have been graduated for 3 yrs now which seems so hard to believe.....but no matter how unreal it seems thats reality.
Other then all of this that has been on my chest, I just have been mainly working and trying to get everything ready for the end of school. Its been very stressful, but I did get a loveseat and coffeetable in my living room now so its not so bare...which is very very nice. I would also like to wish Brooklyn and Beth happy 21st...we can finally all go out together!!! How exciting...pretty much eveyone is 21 now its great!!
Well I am gonna hit the sack I have a paper to get up and write in the morning...fun times!!....Sweetdreams, Tiffany
Good Points:
1. Getting all my work done
2. Getting DC's Scrapbook almost complete
3. Taco Bell Bringing back "Cheesey Gordita crunches" the bestest things ever
4. J-Bizzle, can have coke again!!..LOLOLOL
Bad Points:
1. Realizing just because somethings important to you doesn't mean it holds the same value to that other person...even the depth of ur friendship...
2. My boys are graduating soon..;(
3. Michelle and Ashley M. are going back home..I will miss you kids!!
4. Being left out...enough said
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