Well here it is again another wonderful Sunday evening and I sit and reflect on the past week....I will start with the good and go to the bad (or what seems so horrible to me).
I ended my Spring semester as of friday but I am yet again disappointed in myself and I have no one to blame for this tragedy but me. I have very poor self discipline and I am to all about my friends that I seem to always forget school is what will help me for the rest of my life. But the positive to this is that its over, and I am now a few steps closer to where I am going. I had a fun night Saturday even tho I didn't get to go to prom...I mean I am 21, who at 21 actually feels left out by not going to prom (besides me)?!?!...no one...but after prom was much fun....I was scared for awhile about Shawn starting shit and I felt horrible for Tabitha...but it was a fun night surrounded by friends (as well as an unexpected Matt Lutz) and liqour....I am so glad everyone went dateless or not....I hope they are happy they attended too...I jus know how I felt missin' my JR.prom and I didn't want them to feel that way too. I also need to make an apology to someone who expressed the fact that they thought I was talking shit about them on here....I was not meaning for it to be that way...I was and am confused and I was venting about my feelings and I was a little hype at the time regarding some "gossip" I heard from another friend of mine...I didn't mean to start any beef between us..I just want things back to normal..(whatever that is..haha)..
My weekend sucked mainly because I worked so much at schnucks, I hate being there I feel like they hate me there and that I am goin to be fired at any minute. O well...as long as I get paid I will suffer with no problem. I will admit this on here but never discuss in person to anyone but my C-dawg...because I hate seeming so weak and immature..I hated the fact I sat at home while all my friends went to prom...and I think I would have greatly accepted the fact of not goin, or even not thought about goin if everyone and their mom didn't ask me who I was goin with...Kayla, Lauren, CONNOR, Jaime, Ali, KT, Leah, etc. I mean all these people where like are u goin, u need to go, who ya goin with, ....and I am like I can't invite myself and yea....I told Connor about how I cried like a f*ckin baby after leaving his house and how I only stayed cuz he wanted me too...it jus really sucked...but after picking Jenni up I forgot about it and just figured it was best I didn't go...
Well I guess I am done babbling...and I hope the person who I made mad forgives me...I was never mad at you, how can u be mad at someone for how they feel ?!?...I was just a little too upset when I wrote it so it sounded worse then it was...
Goodnight all and I will ttyl!!~~Love, Tiff
Highlight of the night~~Talking to my old pal Chum, his voice reminds me of wonderful times and how no matter what happens I will always have a friend who knows me front and back!!
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