Well lets see, tonight Jesse provoked me to write and I am glad he did, I needed to catch up on my blogging. Jesse finally understood tonight what it was like to care for someone. Its completely different then being in love, and just because this person is an ex doesn't mean you just stop caring. He always thought I was crazy for talking to Zach still and arguing with him. He now sees where I was coming from and that I do it because I still care not because I am still in love. You can't stop caring for someone I have found out, or at least if you can I have yet to figure out how. Maybe I am just too weak of a person and I never put up a guard, who knows. I do know I care a lot about people even the ones who tend to act like or show they don't care about me. I am just one of those people who figure if you care for someone eventually they will show the same back. Crazy, I know!!
Other then that my Dad just left and went back home. I miss him a lot and it was great to see him and visit. Me and my Dad connect on a different level then the rest of my family (mom for example). We have the intellectual conversations and talk about politics and such, I love it!! We got to visit family while he was here and go on a small vacation, it was nice!! I hope to see him again soon and not have to wait so long it was almost 1yr and half since I had saw him!!
Other then that things are okay I guess, I am on this streak of bad luck that I just can't seem to get off of. I got dismissed from school, lost my financial aid, missed class, got "laid off" from Florida Tan, and any and everything else in between. But like Zach said I always seem to land on my feet some how. I think school will work out according to my advisor, now I need to find a job and get my aid back!! I will do what I can and pray it all works out!!
My love life blows!! I mean really, I wish I could get over the fact that I believe I meant for someone and start looking. I constantly think their are these few guys who I would be perfect with, but its been about 5 years and I still sit in the same spot...ALONE!! I just need a new fresh start, away from here with a clean slate. Sounds good to me!!
Well I am really tired and must make it to class tomorrow, I swear to write more often!! Love TIFFERS
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