Its about that time...

For some unknown reason I have decided its about that time. I am so sick of playing games with Zach, and getting hurt. I also feel as though its the last month Connor is here and I really hate to burden him with all this stupid bullshit. I guess what pisses me off the most is that I have some girl doing shit to intentionally piss me off and she really has no clue who I am. And I am sure the picture Zach has painted for her is not in the best light. I tried so hard to "love" him and show him I care...you can ask anyone..Jenn, Connor, Jennifer, etc. I gave up a lot of shit for him and our relationship and now he acts as if I was never anything. Its okay though cause I know how he once was, how he once cared, and how he once thought I was the world. It amazes me how quickly guys can just let things go without looking back, I am not asking for him to love me I just want him to be a friend, but with the shit he's doing I don't consider it very friendly. He will one day realize I was never as bad as he once thought, its pretty obvious that I must make some kind of impression on people (ex's mostly) because one I didn't talk to for almost 4.5 years randomly calls me about once a month or so. The other one we were broke up for 2 years and didn't speak when he told me he missed me but wanted me to stay with Duane because I looked so happy. Then our freshman year of college we walked to class together everyday, i bet we would still talk if he wasn't married and in Japan, (yea I know what an excuse, huh?!?!). I dunno I just don't understand how this world works, mush less how "love" is suppose to either. One day though I feel I will finally meet my soul mate, or that I already know him and we will be together in the end. But we kind of need to hurry this process up because as DC always tells me, I am gettin' old!!
 
Well now that I have that out of the way, I really haven't been doing to much else. I saw I, Robot, which I thought was a really good movie. The people I went with though (about 11 of us) came out with mixed reviews, I think you should jus go see it for your self. I am getting ready to go so some laundry at Mom's then I have to work 4-8pm at the ol' Schnucks. I think we are gonna go bowling tonight though, $5 all ya can bowl 9-11pm....call me cell if you wanna go!! Also friday we are gonna go to the funny bone and see Cowboy Bill Martin, he's hilarous..this is my second time...so if you wanna see that call me too!! It will be a party!! Well I must go, thanks for listin to me bitch once again, I know things have to start lookin' up!! Tootles, Tiffaspiff