"Jimmy say something?"

This night went from the same ol' same...to well..interesting....
I got off work and went to moms to say hello, and then JB called so we met up at my place and we watched TV for awhile. I then decided I wanted a creamslush from Sonic and we left to go get one and on the way we saw Chris and Andy D. We chatted with them for awhile...even though they were both rather intoxicated....we decided to go back to my place and watch more TV..which was rather boring because their was jacksh*t on. So at about 12:30am JB decided to leave and go home...he told me before he left he was gonna go get gas and go home. At about 12:50am their is a knock at my door, I figured it maybe Jenn or someone so I go to answer it and its him. I 'm not sure if it was just me but it seemed like he was their for a minute before he said anything...his face was red...and I thought he had been crying...my heart dropped. I though someone was hurt or dead for that matter....he proceeds to say "I need you to do me a favor, Chris is drunk and cryin' and I need you to drive his car home"....I was so relieved it was that and nothin' worse...even though we had no clue why he was crying. So I drove his car home...cuz its a manual and well I am the only one who knows how to drive one...and JB followed us so he could bring me back home. Come to find out he was just upset about random things, and I think the beer made it a little more intense then usual. I will never forget they way JB looked standing in the door way it was so crazy....nor will I forget the way I felt...I was like "Jimmy say something, anything, please!!"..it was jus so weird. So for future reference never come to my door after you say you are going home and just stand their at least say hi or something..this applys to everyone. We got a good laugh out of it on the way back to my place though...

So Connor had been gone for a little over a day and I have talked to him 4times...this really makes me wonder how the hell I will survive a week or more when hes at school. Dependency is definately a bad thing...I have learned that twice now..once with him...and another with "the one I shall not speak of". Speaking of him....even though I am not allowed....I heard through the grape vine he had a few words with Beth the other day. This is cool and all but either she or he has stories mixed up...because what she said isn't making since nor is it correct. I know hes happy, and I really truly am happy for him, its about time! I just don't understand the situation I guess. I care about him a lot, and I often want to call and check in...but a.) I know he won't answer and b.) I think its best this way. I have decided they only time I will call is to tell him I finally accomplished what I set out to do, and what he helped me to achieve....granted I am sure his number will be different 10 years from now..lol.. but hey it won't hurt to try!! He made a big impact on my life...like I am sure he will hers...I definately learned a thing or two....and one of those is what its like to be loved.

Anywhoo....times have changed and so have we....but the memories last forever....and thats what I take with me. I told my bro I would come spend the day with him tomorrow...can't you see the excitment on my face?!...yea, me neither. So I think we are going to do fun bro/sis type things since he starts school on Wednesday. I also get paid tomorrow which is funtimes had by all...because it means I am not broke for at least one day of the week. Other then that I am not sure what I will do..I know C-Dawg will get home sometime tomorrow and I will prolly see him. But really no other plans so far....as usual. Well I am off to dreamland....hopes it a good one with a real hot guy...lol...only in my dreams....nighty night...TIFFERS

Daily Quote: "An alcoholic is anyone you don't like who drinks more than you do." Dylan Thomas. ...cheers!!